Sunday, May 26, 2013

Update

I put this collage together, to show the change. The first picture, on the top left, is from the end of November 2012.  The bottom, far right 2 pictures are from May 23, 2013.  I can't see a big difference but, the girls in my workout group said that they can.  So, I'll listen to them!

So, my current weight loss total is 44 lbs.  I weigh 265.9 and when I began this journey, I weighed 309.9.  I have lost a totally of 19 3/4 inches all over since the beginning as well.  My clothes are no longer and tight and I even took 2 bags of clothes to the D.I., because it's part of my commitment and change to stay healthy.  I think that if I leave them in my closet, that they will just be staring at me, giving me the opportunity to fit back into them.  I DO NOT want to do that!

We are beginning training for the St. George marathon.  I'm scared TO DEATH of what's to come and how I'll get through it!  I'm so scared of not being able to make it through the finish line before they cut me out and I"m out of the race.  I was officially put into the race, after some drama.  Originally I was told I was not chosen to be in it this year.  I had a meltdown, to put it nicely.  Washington County residents are automatically supposed to get in.  So, I wasn't expecting a denial letter.  I cried and cried and cried some more.  However, after divine intervention, or whatever you want to call it, I was reinstated back into the race.  I"m SO GRATEFUL!  As a good friend, Dustin, put it: "Maybe this was Heavenly Father's way of letting you make sure this was something you really wanted."  I want this SOOOO bad!  I realized how much I've put into this.  My whole heart and soul!  I'm far from being ready but, I'm closer than I was almost 6 months ago (It will be 6 months on May 29, 2013)!

I'm running the Midnight 5k race tomorrow.  It will be a lot of fun!  It's at 11pm at night and we wear glow sticks and just have a good ole' time!  I'm running it with my sister-in-law, Shannon.

The above picture is from when I ran the Breathe Easy 5k/10k.  I won an entry into this, which I was VERY EXCITED about!!!!  I had signed up for the 10k race.  However, about 2 miles into it my legs cramped up SOOOOO MUCH.  The committee of the race suggested I finish in the 5k race, rather than the 10k, because I was so far behind.  It was VERY DISAPPOINTING to me and made me cry.  I was not happy with myself.  However, on the very bright side, I placed 1st in my age division (30-39) and 6th place overall!  So, it was fun as heck to win a medal!  I even PR'd my time at 31:?? minutes!

We have begun marathon training now.  We're especially working towards running the Bryce Canyon 1/2 Marathon.  I'm excited for this race and have heard many positive and exciting things about it!  Don't get me wrong, I am nervous and scared but, in good ways for sure!!!!

My Dream


"Why do friends attack your dream? Because 

when you chase your dream it reminds them 

they are not chasing theirs. Forgive them & 

move on."

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A friend shared the above quote with me. I really struggle with those I am either close to or associated with not showing support to my desire to run a marathon. Sure, they say good job and way to go but, then they question why I do it the way I do, or why push so hard. My least favorite comment so far is, "You know could just speed walk the whole thing and still finish in time?" One of the people that said that knew I really was concerned and was saying it to comfort me. The other one, I really question why they would say it. The point is, I'm doing the marathon, I'm excited about it, and am excited about the challenge this gives me!!!!!