So, I'm scheduled to have breast reduction surgery on August 13, a week from TODAY!!!! It's SO CLOSE but, feels like the universe is trying to keep it from happening.
Whether it's my insurance details, the Dr.'s office forgetting to fax stuff over to get my surgery on the admittance/docket list, the Dr.'s office forgetting to fax over the claim to my insurance or WHATEVER (the Dr.'s office claims to have faxed everything but, with the said faxes not showing up at both my insurance company AND the admittance department, I don't think that's just a missing fax)....I've just had it!!!! I think one more blow and I will just forget the WHOLE DAMN THING!!!! My parents and Mike's parents have been AMAZING and EXTREMELY SUPPORTIVE!!!! My Dad keeps urging me on, telling me to NOT GIVE UP, and we'll make this happen. I'm a ball of nerves and emotions. Mike is upset, mad, stressed, and just over this whole thing. He hasn't really wanted me to do it from the get-go and I don't think he really thought it would come to pass. Nonetheless, here it is, staring me in the face, knocking on my door! My Mom is supposed to come on Saturday, to help me with my kiddo's, etc. while I'm recovering but, even that is up in the air until we get the kinks, finances, and details all worked out! With everything now being a last minute push because of the faxes supposedly getting lost in translation, I'm just SUPER STRESSED out! This is SO out of my hands and it drives me crazy! I hate waiting on other people to decided my fate. It's like when I tried out for sport's teams and waiting to see if I made the team or not! UGH!!!!
To most people reading this, you may think this is a small thing, not important, and stupid to worry about. To me it is a BIG THING! This surgery is something I've dreamed about for YEARS!!!!! For it to be so close that I can touch it is KILLING me and to know I'm so close to having it not happen is KILLING me!!!!! So, I guess this is TO BE CONTINUED.........
